Ironically — a cassette tape for joseph

A personal message on this cassette for joseph

The irony of hoping that you wouldn't read it—yet still hopes it'd reach you. Honestly i want us; to be together, to love each other, to be honest with each other, no secrets, no "ihh", no memes picture. Ironically, as much as i want us to be tgt, i couldn't help but feel this temptation to run away from you once you get too close, like you're slowly obliterating the walls i built up and i feel so scared, and afraid that once you obliterate the walls i built you'd leave me because you realize what kind of a person i am; that i have so many flaws hidden inside me. Something inside me still hopes that you'd change that—i hope that you'd reassure me that everythings going to be fine, but something is holding me back from hoping, i know that you wouldn't dwell that much from your feelings, from what i feel—or so i thought?, i don't know. Perhaps listening to this song explains more than what i wrote, i'm so sorry, Joseph. I love you, but i cannot let you obliterate the walls i built up.